I've become a monster.
A fiend.
One that can't control his actions,
Thoughts.
It's rather frightening how things can
Change as fast as a bolt of lightning
Strikes.
What I must do,
For other people's sakes,
It is necessary.
Yet, all I can say is:
I'm sorry...

Cheese

Oh cheese,
How I love thee.
So creamy and flavorful,
You make my tummy smile.
There are so many kinds,
I just want to flee
With cheese.

Fleas

Adam Had 'Em.



~Anonymous Poet

I give up.
There's nothing else to do.
Just put back on the mask
That keeps people oblivious.
Oblivious to me, my soul.
Don't let anyone peer,
Look into my heart.
They'll only kill me,
If I let them.
Why let others do the deed for me?

Crawl back into the hole that
Protected me for so long.
Why break my wall
When all that happens is
Heartbreak?
Why try to fly when I'll just be
Shot down by the ones that
Said they never would?
Why would they do that...?
...Why?
Up goes the wall again...

I don't even know...
I forgot...
But, I don't even care...
So, i guess we're fucked.
Fucked for life or
Until we get
A clue.
Until then,
I'm going back.
Back into the darkness,
Where I know.

I just want to
Disappear.
I need to.
I'm just causing too much
Pain,
Hurt on everyone
I love.

I'm sorry
For all this shit.
I'm sorry
For all this pain.
I didn't mean it, but
I did it.
There's no
Making up for
Any of it, but
I truly am sorry...

I lie here,
Barely breathing,
Barely alive.
I'm so cold
From the blood rushing
Out of my body.
Yet, I'm warm.
I know that nothing else can
Happen now.
Now that I'm gone,
People can be happier.

So numb...
Can't feel anything but
Apathy.
Why is it so hard to feel?
Feel happiness,
Grief, sorrow,
Like a person.
What do I even feel like?
I don't even know,
But yet,
I don't even care.

I have finally found what I have been
Looking for.
The light that has once been
Hidden in the darkness
Has revealed itself,
Just in time.
The darkness was too consuming,
But I have found my light
In you.

The constant fear
Is too much to bear.
All this stress,
All this anxiety,
All I feel is it
Worsening.
Getting so bad that
It makes me ache.
It's too hard to keep going
With my plastic face.
Why can't I find the way out
When I see
The light?

What's the point?
In trying?
Trying to make people happy?
Nobody appreciates what we
Do for them.
Nobody gives a f***.
Why do I try so hard...?

How can one little mistake
Mess everything up?
How could I be stupid enough to make it?
That little thing ruined us,
Ruined me,
My mind.
Why did I do this to myself?

This pain,
I can't take it anymore.
I just want it all to end.
Only one way I can
See.
One way to escape.
I'm sorry I can't
Be
Better, good for you.
So, I guess this is forever
Goodbye...

Take me away,
Into your eyes,
Your beauty,
Your life.
You are the only one who can help.
Help me with the soft touch of
Your kiss,
For I love you.
But, I should get over it.
You would be better without me.

I'm driving down this road.
I can't see,
Even with the headlights on.
Everything is so dark.
No other people in sight.
Pull over and park the car.
That is my life.
Get out and walk into the middle.
I collapse.
Minutes, hours...
Time seems to melt together.
I lie, waiting for
The night to
Take me away.

I need to escape from myself.
My pain, my suffering,
My tragedy, sorrow.
My mind.
Where else do I go
Besides "away?"
It seems that no one cares,
No one listens
Except for you...

Can I escape into you?

Why do I try?
It seems that's I ever do anymore.
What does it do?
Nothing.

That's what I am.
That's what I'm good for.
If I'm nothing,
Why can't I just disappear?

The blood flows angrily
Out of my near lifeless body.
It's not even a body anymore.
It's more of a shell.
When did it become a shell?
Why do I even have to ask that?
why do I even have to feel so...
Empty?
Is that what I truly feel?
Empty?
Numb?
No matter how hard I try,
I can't feel anything more than
Empty.

I'm becoming unraveld.
It's not my fault,
But I can't stop it.

I'm becoming unglued,
Losing my grip on reality.
Nothing can stop it.

The Venom courses through me,
Races through my veins,
Making me weak.
Weak until I want to end it all.
Make it all go away.

The Venom is running faster,
Making everything pulsate.
My head is pounding.
It's starting to make
Everything go re, then black,
Making it all go away.

I'd give anything
To see you happy,
Even if it means leaving
You in my past.
As much as it hurts,
I will do just that.

I'd give anything
To fix what was shredded.
Unfortunately, what's broken
Is too torn to be mended.
As much as it hurts,
I will walk away.
And never come back

I want to
Fly away.
I want to
Soar.
It's so painful to be grounded.
So, why not leave...

Forever...